Levi

My dearest Levi,

Today you are a year old. I remember like it was yesterday when you were put into my arms with a scowl on your face like usual. You were so little and yet, you weren't so small at 8lbs 12oz. I hope that you know that you are loved by both your parents. I can't even begin to tell you how much I wanted a child for so many years and I was wondering if I'd ever get the chance to be a mother but here you are and you are so special to me.

This year has had its ups and downs like many other mothers struggling to get used to caring for another person all the time. I remember walking the halls of our apartment at night worried that your crying would wake up the college kids living in the apartments above us. I remember the scowl you gave everyone and then the beautiful smile that you gave your aunt when you met her for the first time while we were in the temple being sealed.

I was so happy when you reached your milestones and I was so sad when you were sick - even though you weren't sick very often. I almost cried when you got your shots and I felt terrible leaving you with someone while I went to school. I missed seeing everything you did while I was gone. However, because I left you with someone you got used to being around other kids and you love playing with your friends.

I watched you playing yesterday thinking that it was the last day that you would still be 11 months old and remembering that a year ago I was in the hospital waiting for my body to start working so that I could finally hold you in my arms. I'm a little sad to see you growing up and turning a year old already but I can't keep you little forever. I love you so much son!

Your loving Mother